A love letter to someone I admire from afar.
One fine day, your enigmatic gaze caught my eye. I felt my heart beat, wondering why this feeling existed in me. At the sight of you, I felt like I was in cloud nine.
It has been a long time since I felt this kind of thing in my heart: an endearing reminder that admiring someone from afar is such a powerful emotion brought by humanity’s ability to love and be loved. How fascinating it is to be inspired by someone even when that person doesn’t know what you truly feel about them. You just like the idea of things hidden in plain sight — discovering that some things can be beautiful even when they’re not said out loud.
And yes, that’s what I precisely feel.
For quite some time now, I find myself searching every corner when you’re not around. I wonder in silence how your day was like, and what it must be like for you to not always be punctual during class.
More so, when I catch you staring at me when I laugh too much about the silly little things I do whenever the music is playing.
I find it intriguing to hear you laugh with your friends, and notice how a fast learner you are at things. It amazes me how you always do your best at every session. It just makes me so curious about you. I wonder why too.
Then suddenly, I catch myself grinning from ear to ear whenever I see you smile which makes me smile too. It’s so infectious, I know.
I wonder in silence what your favorite song is, or how you like your coffee. I wonder what books you read, music you like, and hobbies you enjoy most. But I couldn’t seem to find the chance to know such things about you. Because I am just so enamored by you and it scares me to reach out.
I just know in my heart that when you’re around, I catch you steal a glance and smile so perfectly.
It inspires me even more how this feeling has been residing on me for a while now — without me talking to you.It just reminds me of my high school years.
Whenever you’re around, I feel like I’m back to being 7th grade — who smiles and giggles in kilig. Like I don’t even have to talk to you just to feel something. I just know it that a certain familiarity exists between us, and when the stars align someday, I hope we’ll have the chance to talk endlessly about our dreams, goals, and even worst nightmares.
For now,
I’ll be wishing you a happy valentine’s even when it’s not yet the time for us to talk to each other.
I hope your day is filled with love.
Thank you for making me feel like I’m back to being in high school.
When the stars align,
I hope you think of me too.
— Cess
